Todays Jewels:
1hr walk,
1.5 bowls of cereal
1 lb salad, lemon +olive oil dressing
2 hr music lessons
water
1 hr meditation
Monday, January 30, 2012
BLACK IS HISTORY
Hi hi! 2 days from February 2012, the last Black History Month in the world as we know it according to the Mayan calendar. I just came back from an hour walk in THAT direction. which direction is that you might ask? Well, it's the one I don't usually take. You see, I need some new motivation. a new exploration. So I laced up and hit the trail...over there. I hope in the next few months to redefine and redefine again my path and my motivation. And then again after that. Come March, Black will be History, and what will we be? Which way will you be going? One of the better things about history is that you can refer to it, use it as a reminder or guide. I look at my past blogs and I remember when I was uber focused on losing fat and weight. I am reminded of my mindset, my path. But I cannot recreate it exactly. No, you see I have moved on. And in the past year fittins, I have eaten the majority of what I wanted, I haven't stressed to workout at all, and I have packed on 20 of the pounds I had already lost.. to the journey. But I know how I did it, and I know how I did it before. Right now in this moment, I am finding a new direction that works for me right now. Inspired by the past, pointed toward the future, it is what we do right now TODAY that counts. and tomorrow it will be what we do right now today that counts. I am responsible for myself today. Staying true to myself, honoring my wishes, believing in myself all day long. Treating myself with nourishing treats, meditation, silence, and progress. Loving myself today. Pretty soon Black will be History. And we'll be looking for something else to be.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
BACK IN THE GAME
You can't keep a good thing down, Fittins. I know, I KNOW it has been a while. I have been singing, baking, living, loving. Eating, being free, all that super good stuff. And my weight has plateaued for about a year. I might go up or down 7-10 pounds but, It has been the same, and this is with a drastic dive on working out. I came to my blog today to re-encourage myself to get back on it, and to get ready for this summer life. I have my Jamaica Hibiscus drink ready and it's going down all month. Oh! DJ SUN and I are making an album! It promises to be good to you. Okay guys, salads. greens. raw foods. fruits. SMOOTHIES! Yoga, Pool, Stretching, breathing, Singing, Sex!!
This summer, I am training to activate 5% more of my brain matter. I missed you guys. Let's get fine.
This summer, I am training to activate 5% more of my brain matter. I missed you guys. Let's get fine.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
To Thine Own Self Be True
Bonjour Fittins and all my Chinese Followers out there. When I was in Los Angeles last week, Courtnie took me to a yoga class. The teacher said something that really stuck with me. Well, the first thing she mentioned was that in that class we were going for quality over quantity. I have blogged previously about that particular ratio and how it pertains to fitness, but still in all respect, true true. But the other thing that she mentioned was for us to make no judgments in our process, yet validate every moment of the experience. Moved, I have referenced that suggestion all week long and it has helped me to get through a couple of tough workouts, crucial internal debates with myself at the bar over whether or not I will have a drink, and emotionally debilitating days like yesterday, which I finally reserved as a mental health day. Yes, I gave myself a mental health day. I worked out first (I wasn't going Completely crazy) I had lunch and sample-adventures at Whole Foods just like the good old days, and I allowed myself to go there. You know, There. All the way to the place where it is dark and where Fear resides and sadness and anxiety. I hadn't been to that place in such a long time, but that is where I was and I did not deny it. In fact, I took my time there, did my business if you will, drove all the way home There, and once at home, finally went to sleep from mental and emotional exhaustion. While asleep, I had a dream. And in my dream I was back at Whole Foods, the place where my mind started to rummage around looking for this There place to sprawl out and spew. I was back There in my dream, in the exact place yet it was different. This time my aunt was there and she sweetly reminded me that I had a cupcake in the fridge waiting for me. Indeed, I did have a real cupcake waiting for me in my waken world and when I awoke, I went to the kitchen and ate the cupcake that I had been saving for 5 days now, and the spell was officially broken.
In becoming my best, striving for optimum and challenging myself, I have not always been truthful with myself. I haven't even lent an ear to myself so that I could be a good friend to myself and let myself vent to myself. But today I took the time and I listened and it was hard and painful in moments. I said some things I didn't really mean but needed to feel, and I heard some concerns that I had not fully validated but rather swept conveniently under my datebook to tend to later or will into non-existence..? My beloved Fittins (and Chinese followers), Allow your selves room to experience the Experience. Lend an ear to your self and be honest about your current and continue to be honest about your future. My mental health day showed me that I need to check in more mentally, to make sure my mental fitness is getting the adequate process that my physical now demands. My mental health day also reiterated that it is time for a cleanse. (one of the mental and physical things I have been sweeping around for a while now.) I am ready for it too. Who will join me? I think the 23rd is a perfect day; that's when school starts.
In becoming my best, striving for optimum and challenging myself, I have not always been truthful with myself. I haven't even lent an ear to myself so that I could be a good friend to myself and let myself vent to myself. But today I took the time and I listened and it was hard and painful in moments. I said some things I didn't really mean but needed to feel, and I heard some concerns that I had not fully validated but rather swept conveniently under my datebook to tend to later or will into non-existence..? My beloved Fittins (and Chinese followers), Allow your selves room to experience the Experience. Lend an ear to your self and be honest about your current and continue to be honest about your future. My mental health day showed me that I need to check in more mentally, to make sure my mental fitness is getting the adequate process that my physical now demands. My mental health day also reiterated that it is time for a cleanse. (one of the mental and physical things I have been sweeping around for a while now.) I am ready for it too. Who will join me? I think the 23rd is a perfect day; that's when school starts.
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Yes, I THInk I Love MY Body
I feel really good today. Since last time, I bought 2 Gallons of Pure Aloe Vera Juice and I have been drinking it everyday with Apple juice, or lime juice, or plain. Not only is it a tissue rejuvenator, not only is it ultra soothing to my vocal chords, but my intestinal track is getting a pampering that it never dreamt of receiving. Not to mention my skin is getting some much needed internal hydrating as well. My Green tea made a comeback this week also. Good to see you again, Green Tea. Time, my personal trainer, ripped me a new one this pass week! For most of the week I trained outside and concentrated on cardio. I have had so much stress lately that I was honestly waiting for tomorrow to get here just so I could go and run it out. The mental training and discipline required to take you to the next level in the game is really what the arduous repetitions are about. I jogged so many laps by Wednesday, I was proud of my heart and lungs by Thursday, AND my legs,... for all having my back :O) On Friday, we just lifted weights, mostly arms -triceps and biceps, and some legs, quads. Then we sealed the deal with ab work. I told Time, " I'll be so sore this weekend, I won't be able to pick up the fork to cheat if I tried!"
He said that was the point. And I know it is a basic concept, but I am just now understanding that my body runs directly on what I feed it. It's not like my psychy or my emotions or ME, affected by my environment, influenced by other external sensory experiences that can help me grow and mature. No, we feed our bodies the fuel to make it run. We run our bodies to maintain the mechanical integrity of the model, and if it needs a tune up, then we will definitely feel it because this body is our vehicle. It is what we are given ONE time and ... understanding that now, I appreciate how my body has been here for me throughout the years when I have been highly abusive to it at times. But looking forward, me and my body are working on us, our communication, our trust and provisions for each other. Our love. That's it. I think I love my body. Yes! I do. And I want her to be happy. She deserves it.
This week, I know I must push myself a little further in my runs, dipper digs, further extensions and more heart. A little pass last week. I want to lead with my heart, follow with my mind, and trust my body to have my back. I've been visualizing my ribcage leading the Team BODY around the course and not my feet. It makes me stretch my obliques and open up my solar plexus in a way that encourages optimal oxygen delivery to my heart and lungs. My water intake has been good but can be better. And this week, I start in the garden. Yes to Spring! Let's cultivate and revel proudly in the fruits of our labour, shall we?
He said that was the point. And I know it is a basic concept, but I am just now understanding that my body runs directly on what I feed it. It's not like my psychy or my emotions or ME, affected by my environment, influenced by other external sensory experiences that can help me grow and mature. No, we feed our bodies the fuel to make it run. We run our bodies to maintain the mechanical integrity of the model, and if it needs a tune up, then we will definitely feel it because this body is our vehicle. It is what we are given ONE time and ... understanding that now, I appreciate how my body has been here for me throughout the years when I have been highly abusive to it at times. But looking forward, me and my body are working on us, our communication, our trust and provisions for each other. Our love. That's it. I think I love my body. Yes! I do. And I want her to be happy. She deserves it.
This week, I know I must push myself a little further in my runs, dipper digs, further extensions and more heart. A little pass last week. I want to lead with my heart, follow with my mind, and trust my body to have my back. I've been visualizing my ribcage leading the Team BODY around the course and not my feet. It makes me stretch my obliques and open up my solar plexus in a way that encourages optimal oxygen delivery to my heart and lungs. My water intake has been good but can be better. And this week, I start in the garden. Yes to Spring! Let's cultivate and revel proudly in the fruits of our labour, shall we?
Monday, April 19, 2010
2010: The Year of the Bikini
Oh my God Oh My God Oh My God Oh My GAWWWWW! Something broke. I don't know what it is! But it is broken. Is it my waist line? Ha Almost. Is it my will? I feel like I am getting warmer. let me explain the myriad calls to the Lord: I want to eat everything right now all the time. Since like, going on 2 weeks. Writing to you guys, my neglected fittins, will hopefully remind me that I must stay the course. Today though, I ate lots of Kale. also Gulf oysters on the half shell and 1 1/4 pound of crawfish. but no bread! :( I realized as I drove home and not out to the spot for a drink, that I am the only person standing in the way of me and getting this weight off. And quite frankly, I'm ready to move my ass around. Everything is so close, within my reach, so why won't I just grab it? Do I really want it? I am grabbing things i don't really want let alone need everyday.
I have 2 shows this weekend and one is a video shoot/show. I've assessed that I am nervous and therefore eating more, trying less. Which can be a good thing in context. But never before in my life have I been observant to my own self sabatoge, you know, with seeing eyes. I see my fail coming up around the corner but... I can see it so, I can yield to it and avoid the collision. Alot's been pouring in but not alot pouring out and I apologize, My Fittins. I plan on remedying that. Tis I, your queen of the Slo Go Boogie and if its one thing we know its that when we fight we win. I was almost out for the count but I am back. And I got my game face on. 2010:The Year of the Bikini is about to get a little hotter.
I have 2 shows this weekend and one is a video shoot/show. I've assessed that I am nervous and therefore eating more, trying less. Which can be a good thing in context. But never before in my life have I been observant to my own self sabatoge, you know, with seeing eyes. I see my fail coming up around the corner but... I can see it so, I can yield to it and avoid the collision. Alot's been pouring in but not alot pouring out and I apologize, My Fittins. I plan on remedying that. Tis I, your queen of the Slo Go Boogie and if its one thing we know its that when we fight we win. I was almost out for the count but I am back. And I got my game face on. 2010:The Year of the Bikini is about to get a little hotter.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
......
I cant wait to eat tomorrow. I am really hungry. I should be asleep then I wouldn't be hungry, Id be sleeping. My party is next week and I have BEEN partying with the cast of the Sound of Music for like, 8 days straight. So guess who's hungry? Me. 8 more days of hunger. Happy New Year Fittins. Come to my party at the Ensemble Theatre Dec 29th 7-10pm.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
JUST FOOD and the Battle of the Holiday Cravings
Hey Fittins,
I don't know what to call this entry so I'm just going to call it FOOD. I mean, that's all I am thinking about these days. In the summer, I am preoccupied with becoming my best, in the winter, I am preoccupied with how to get my mind off of food glorious food. I mean, it's cold outside! I work all the time!! I don't have a boyfriend therefore I need some comfort! Bears do it!!...(wait. that's hibernate, whatevs.)
It's December and I am going to make it to the end of this year and I will be focused on this fitness. My goal was to lose 30 more pounds from July to December 31st. By New Year's eve, I am confident in saying I will have lost that amount of weight over the course of these 6 months. Now whether or not I have kept it all off, we have to see New Year's Eve. Entering tech week of my third show this Fall, I'll admit it: I'm tired. And sometimes I just want to eat a pizza and drink a bottle of wine. I am also tired of going back and forth with myself and my preoccupation of what food item would be perfect at any giving moment. So I officially surrender.
I surrender to all of my tingling tastebuds,my memory's recall and emotional association with certain foods and food groups, especially during this holiday season. I surrender to my love of Food. But I am creative and if I'm going to eat and eat to satiate me, its time to pull out the Gift of Alternatives.
Driving home tonight, I compiled a list in my head: The list of foods I will be consuming for the month of December 2009 (for the most part)
The list that made me excited about planning my food and controlling my plan by making this list! Here it goes:
Almonds Almonds Almonds
Raw almonds Wasabi Tamari Almonds!!! Yummm!!! Those are special. Like a treat!!! Enjoy it.
Meatless chicken nuggets and meatless chicken patties. Tonight I ate meatless chicken patties with spinach leaves on top, A TBSP of Tomato sauce and eggplant sauce on top, and a sprinkle of shredded mozzo. It comforted me thoroughly for just under 200 calories. I can do that 1-3 times a week all month before getting sick of it. Next!
I know I don't eat a lot of cereal, but its December and I want to eat some cereal dammit. So I have a budget of one bowl of cereal with vanilla soymilk in the morning, should I choose to cash in on it, every morning this month (which will probably end up being 15-20 mornings this month) Why? Because it also feels like a treat to me. And I have learned to recognize that shaky knee of pleasure-depravity that urges me to heed its warning's tremble just before all hell breaks loose. And we are close, hence the list. Also!
Cereal is sweet. Soy milk is.. milky. I feel like I am participating in this season and all the yummies therein when I eat cereal. And its good for me for just under 200 calories.
Cabbage. I can eat cabbage every single day. It is amazing. And I steam mine with a chopped tomato, chopped onion, apple cider vinegar, olive oil, and a taste of whipped butter. sea salt black pepper, cayenne. The perfect soup to eat when you want quantity first and quality first. Its warm and reminds me of all the trimmings on a soul food get-down plate. I find if you remember the star(s) you will remember the whole production. I do the same thing with Collard greens or mustard greens. Even a baked Yam. These comforting soul foods can give and give and give individually each starring in a one man's show.
If I throw in Salads which are a bit miscellaneous this month ( its hard for me to eat so much salad in cold weather) and my odwalla superfood bars which I pull out of my purse around 4pm, and my last treat "100 calorie" snack bars ( I do not eat more than 2 of these anyday. And if I want 2 that day, I decide that morning and I spread them out) I already have a list of yummy things I can crave all day and night and plan for and achieve still averaging 900-1000 calories a day. This is my plan for December. Oh! I almost forgot: ALL Things Mushrooms, Spinach and tomatoes. Stir-Fry?! You better believe it. Broccoli Crowns, raw or steamed, either with a splash of lemon juice, sea salt and olive oil? abso. And apples. for those mornings I dont want cereal. For those mornings I want a little more Fiber and a break to make my cereal feel like a treat again. And I can mix and match these unitary food items to keep my belly full every 2-3 sunlit hours, and I STILL have a safety net of 200-300 calories a day that I can fall into if I happen too, and still lose weight. CAUTION: We plan WITH our safety net. We do not plan FOR our safety net. (this safety net equals 2-3 "bingeable" snack bars. also equals 3-4 of the ULTIMATE unitary treat: STRING CHEESE) I'm just sayin. You better be ready.
When your thoughts of food consume you, get creative! Get in you head and consume your food thoughts. There is power in Planning. And sooo much food tastes good. Oh! I almost forgot another thing for this December-The Battle of the Holiday Cravings: Cauliflower, steamed, mashed, with curry and turmeric. and a tbsp of coconut milk if I'm feeling naughty.
Feast, Fittins! Nature has a beautiful Garden for us. Get Creative and Stay Focused. I am refocused now that I know whats on the menu. I'm trying to go to sleep so I can wake up and eat my next meal!! And please remember to Say Your Grace!
xoxo
Lisa E.
I don't know what to call this entry so I'm just going to call it FOOD. I mean, that's all I am thinking about these days. In the summer, I am preoccupied with becoming my best, in the winter, I am preoccupied with how to get my mind off of food glorious food. I mean, it's cold outside! I work all the time!! I don't have a boyfriend therefore I need some comfort! Bears do it!!...(wait. that's hibernate, whatevs.)
It's December and I am going to make it to the end of this year and I will be focused on this fitness. My goal was to lose 30 more pounds from July to December 31st. By New Year's eve, I am confident in saying I will have lost that amount of weight over the course of these 6 months. Now whether or not I have kept it all off, we have to see New Year's Eve. Entering tech week of my third show this Fall, I'll admit it: I'm tired. And sometimes I just want to eat a pizza and drink a bottle of wine. I am also tired of going back and forth with myself and my preoccupation of what food item would be perfect at any giving moment. So I officially surrender.
I surrender to all of my tingling tastebuds,my memory's recall and emotional association with certain foods and food groups, especially during this holiday season. I surrender to my love of Food. But I am creative and if I'm going to eat and eat to satiate me, its time to pull out the Gift of Alternatives.
Driving home tonight, I compiled a list in my head: The list of foods I will be consuming for the month of December 2009 (for the most part)
The list that made me excited about planning my food and controlling my plan by making this list! Here it goes:
Almonds Almonds Almonds
Raw almonds Wasabi Tamari Almonds!!! Yummm!!! Those are special. Like a treat!!! Enjoy it.
Meatless chicken nuggets and meatless chicken patties. Tonight I ate meatless chicken patties with spinach leaves on top, A TBSP of Tomato sauce and eggplant sauce on top, and a sprinkle of shredded mozzo. It comforted me thoroughly for just under 200 calories. I can do that 1-3 times a week all month before getting sick of it. Next!
I know I don't eat a lot of cereal, but its December and I want to eat some cereal dammit. So I have a budget of one bowl of cereal with vanilla soymilk in the morning, should I choose to cash in on it, every morning this month (which will probably end up being 15-20 mornings this month) Why? Because it also feels like a treat to me. And I have learned to recognize that shaky knee of pleasure-depravity that urges me to heed its warning's tremble just before all hell breaks loose. And we are close, hence the list. Also!
Cereal is sweet. Soy milk is.. milky. I feel like I am participating in this season and all the yummies therein when I eat cereal. And its good for me for just under 200 calories.
Cabbage. I can eat cabbage every single day. It is amazing. And I steam mine with a chopped tomato, chopped onion, apple cider vinegar, olive oil, and a taste of whipped butter. sea salt black pepper, cayenne. The perfect soup to eat when you want quantity first and quality first. Its warm and reminds me of all the trimmings on a soul food get-down plate. I find if you remember the star(s) you will remember the whole production. I do the same thing with Collard greens or mustard greens. Even a baked Yam. These comforting soul foods can give and give and give individually each starring in a one man's show.
If I throw in Salads which are a bit miscellaneous this month ( its hard for me to eat so much salad in cold weather) and my odwalla superfood bars which I pull out of my purse around 4pm, and my last treat "100 calorie" snack bars ( I do not eat more than 2 of these anyday. And if I want 2 that day, I decide that morning and I spread them out) I already have a list of yummy things I can crave all day and night and plan for and achieve still averaging 900-1000 calories a day. This is my plan for December. Oh! I almost forgot: ALL Things Mushrooms, Spinach and tomatoes. Stir-Fry?! You better believe it. Broccoli Crowns, raw or steamed, either with a splash of lemon juice, sea salt and olive oil? abso. And apples. for those mornings I dont want cereal. For those mornings I want a little more Fiber and a break to make my cereal feel like a treat again. And I can mix and match these unitary food items to keep my belly full every 2-3 sunlit hours, and I STILL have a safety net of 200-300 calories a day that I can fall into if I happen too, and still lose weight. CAUTION: We plan WITH our safety net. We do not plan FOR our safety net. (this safety net equals 2-3 "bingeable" snack bars. also equals 3-4 of the ULTIMATE unitary treat: STRING CHEESE) I'm just sayin. You better be ready.
When your thoughts of food consume you, get creative! Get in you head and consume your food thoughts. There is power in Planning. And sooo much food tastes good. Oh! I almost forgot another thing for this December-The Battle of the Holiday Cravings: Cauliflower, steamed, mashed, with curry and turmeric. and a tbsp of coconut milk if I'm feeling naughty.
Feast, Fittins! Nature has a beautiful Garden for us. Get Creative and Stay Focused. I am refocused now that I know whats on the menu. I'm trying to go to sleep so I can wake up and eat my next meal!! And please remember to Say Your Grace!
xoxo
Lisa E.
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