I feel really good today. Since last time, I bought 2 Gallons of Pure Aloe Vera Juice and I have been drinking it everyday with Apple juice, or lime juice, or plain. Not only is it a tissue rejuvenator, not only is it ultra soothing to my vocal chords, but my intestinal track is getting a pampering that it never dreamt of receiving. Not to mention my skin is getting some much needed internal hydrating as well. My Green tea made a comeback this week also. Good to see you again, Green Tea. Time, my personal trainer, ripped me a new one this pass week! For most of the week I trained outside and concentrated on cardio. I have had so much stress lately that I was honestly waiting for tomorrow to get here just so I could go and run it out. The mental training and discipline required to take you to the next level in the game is really what the arduous repetitions are about. I jogged so many laps by Wednesday, I was proud of my heart and lungs by Thursday, AND my legs,... for all having my back :O) On Friday, we just lifted weights, mostly arms -triceps and biceps, and some legs, quads. Then we sealed the deal with ab work. I told Time, " I'll be so sore this weekend, I won't be able to pick up the fork to cheat if I tried!"
He said that was the point. And I know it is a basic concept, but I am just now understanding that my body runs directly on what I feed it. It's not like my psychy or my emotions or ME, affected by my environment, influenced by other external sensory experiences that can help me grow and mature. No, we feed our bodies the fuel to make it run. We run our bodies to maintain the mechanical integrity of the model, and if it needs a tune up, then we will definitely feel it because this body is our vehicle. It is what we are given ONE time and ... understanding that now, I appreciate how my body has been here for me throughout the years when I have been highly abusive to it at times. But looking forward, me and my body are working on us, our communication, our trust and provisions for each other. Our love. That's it. I think I love my body. Yes! I do. And I want her to be happy. She deserves it.
This week, I know I must push myself a little further in my runs, dipper digs, further extensions and more heart. A little pass last week. I want to lead with my heart, follow with my mind, and trust my body to have my back. I've been visualizing my ribcage leading the Team BODY around the course and not my feet. It makes me stretch my obliques and open up my solar plexus in a way that encourages optimal oxygen delivery to my heart and lungs. My water intake has been good but can be better. And this week, I start in the garden. Yes to Spring! Let's cultivate and revel proudly in the fruits of our labour, shall we?
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Monday, April 19, 2010
2010: The Year of the Bikini
Oh my God Oh My God Oh My God Oh My GAWWWWW! Something broke. I don't know what it is! But it is broken. Is it my waist line? Ha Almost. Is it my will? I feel like I am getting warmer. let me explain the myriad calls to the Lord: I want to eat everything right now all the time. Since like, going on 2 weeks. Writing to you guys, my neglected fittins, will hopefully remind me that I must stay the course. Today though, I ate lots of Kale. also Gulf oysters on the half shell and 1 1/4 pound of crawfish. but no bread! :( I realized as I drove home and not out to the spot for a drink, that I am the only person standing in the way of me and getting this weight off. And quite frankly, I'm ready to move my ass around. Everything is so close, within my reach, so why won't I just grab it? Do I really want it? I am grabbing things i don't really want let alone need everyday.
I have 2 shows this weekend and one is a video shoot/show. I've assessed that I am nervous and therefore eating more, trying less. Which can be a good thing in context. But never before in my life have I been observant to my own self sabatoge, you know, with seeing eyes. I see my fail coming up around the corner but... I can see it so, I can yield to it and avoid the collision. Alot's been pouring in but not alot pouring out and I apologize, My Fittins. I plan on remedying that. Tis I, your queen of the Slo Go Boogie and if its one thing we know its that when we fight we win. I was almost out for the count but I am back. And I got my game face on. 2010:The Year of the Bikini is about to get a little hotter.
I have 2 shows this weekend and one is a video shoot/show. I've assessed that I am nervous and therefore eating more, trying less. Which can be a good thing in context. But never before in my life have I been observant to my own self sabatoge, you know, with seeing eyes. I see my fail coming up around the corner but... I can see it so, I can yield to it and avoid the collision. Alot's been pouring in but not alot pouring out and I apologize, My Fittins. I plan on remedying that. Tis I, your queen of the Slo Go Boogie and if its one thing we know its that when we fight we win. I was almost out for the count but I am back. And I got my game face on. 2010:The Year of the Bikini is about to get a little hotter.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
......
I cant wait to eat tomorrow. I am really hungry. I should be asleep then I wouldn't be hungry, Id be sleeping. My party is next week and I have BEEN partying with the cast of the Sound of Music for like, 8 days straight. So guess who's hungry? Me. 8 more days of hunger. Happy New Year Fittins. Come to my party at the Ensemble Theatre Dec 29th 7-10pm.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
JUST FOOD and the Battle of the Holiday Cravings
Hey Fittins,
I don't know what to call this entry so I'm just going to call it FOOD. I mean, that's all I am thinking about these days. In the summer, I am preoccupied with becoming my best, in the winter, I am preoccupied with how to get my mind off of food glorious food. I mean, it's cold outside! I work all the time!! I don't have a boyfriend therefore I need some comfort! Bears do it!!...(wait. that's hibernate, whatevs.)
It's December and I am going to make it to the end of this year and I will be focused on this fitness. My goal was to lose 30 more pounds from July to December 31st. By New Year's eve, I am confident in saying I will have lost that amount of weight over the course of these 6 months. Now whether or not I have kept it all off, we have to see New Year's Eve. Entering tech week of my third show this Fall, I'll admit it: I'm tired. And sometimes I just want to eat a pizza and drink a bottle of wine. I am also tired of going back and forth with myself and my preoccupation of what food item would be perfect at any giving moment. So I officially surrender.
I surrender to all of my tingling tastebuds,my memory's recall and emotional association with certain foods and food groups, especially during this holiday season. I surrender to my love of Food. But I am creative and if I'm going to eat and eat to satiate me, its time to pull out the Gift of Alternatives.
Driving home tonight, I compiled a list in my head: The list of foods I will be consuming for the month of December 2009 (for the most part)
The list that made me excited about planning my food and controlling my plan by making this list! Here it goes:
Almonds Almonds Almonds
Raw almonds Wasabi Tamari Almonds!!! Yummm!!! Those are special. Like a treat!!! Enjoy it.
Meatless chicken nuggets and meatless chicken patties. Tonight I ate meatless chicken patties with spinach leaves on top, A TBSP of Tomato sauce and eggplant sauce on top, and a sprinkle of shredded mozzo. It comforted me thoroughly for just under 200 calories. I can do that 1-3 times a week all month before getting sick of it. Next!
I know I don't eat a lot of cereal, but its December and I want to eat some cereal dammit. So I have a budget of one bowl of cereal with vanilla soymilk in the morning, should I choose to cash in on it, every morning this month (which will probably end up being 15-20 mornings this month) Why? Because it also feels like a treat to me. And I have learned to recognize that shaky knee of pleasure-depravity that urges me to heed its warning's tremble just before all hell breaks loose. And we are close, hence the list. Also!
Cereal is sweet. Soy milk is.. milky. I feel like I am participating in this season and all the yummies therein when I eat cereal. And its good for me for just under 200 calories.
Cabbage. I can eat cabbage every single day. It is amazing. And I steam mine with a chopped tomato, chopped onion, apple cider vinegar, olive oil, and a taste of whipped butter. sea salt black pepper, cayenne. The perfect soup to eat when you want quantity first and quality first. Its warm and reminds me of all the trimmings on a soul food get-down plate. I find if you remember the star(s) you will remember the whole production. I do the same thing with Collard greens or mustard greens. Even a baked Yam. These comforting soul foods can give and give and give individually each starring in a one man's show.
If I throw in Salads which are a bit miscellaneous this month ( its hard for me to eat so much salad in cold weather) and my odwalla superfood bars which I pull out of my purse around 4pm, and my last treat "100 calorie" snack bars ( I do not eat more than 2 of these anyday. And if I want 2 that day, I decide that morning and I spread them out) I already have a list of yummy things I can crave all day and night and plan for and achieve still averaging 900-1000 calories a day. This is my plan for December. Oh! I almost forgot: ALL Things Mushrooms, Spinach and tomatoes. Stir-Fry?! You better believe it. Broccoli Crowns, raw or steamed, either with a splash of lemon juice, sea salt and olive oil? abso. And apples. for those mornings I dont want cereal. For those mornings I want a little more Fiber and a break to make my cereal feel like a treat again. And I can mix and match these unitary food items to keep my belly full every 2-3 sunlit hours, and I STILL have a safety net of 200-300 calories a day that I can fall into if I happen too, and still lose weight. CAUTION: We plan WITH our safety net. We do not plan FOR our safety net. (this safety net equals 2-3 "bingeable" snack bars. also equals 3-4 of the ULTIMATE unitary treat: STRING CHEESE) I'm just sayin. You better be ready.
When your thoughts of food consume you, get creative! Get in you head and consume your food thoughts. There is power in Planning. And sooo much food tastes good. Oh! I almost forgot another thing for this December-The Battle of the Holiday Cravings: Cauliflower, steamed, mashed, with curry and turmeric. and a tbsp of coconut milk if I'm feeling naughty.
Feast, Fittins! Nature has a beautiful Garden for us. Get Creative and Stay Focused. I am refocused now that I know whats on the menu. I'm trying to go to sleep so I can wake up and eat my next meal!! And please remember to Say Your Grace!
xoxo
Lisa E.
I don't know what to call this entry so I'm just going to call it FOOD. I mean, that's all I am thinking about these days. In the summer, I am preoccupied with becoming my best, in the winter, I am preoccupied with how to get my mind off of food glorious food. I mean, it's cold outside! I work all the time!! I don't have a boyfriend therefore I need some comfort! Bears do it!!...(wait. that's hibernate, whatevs.)
It's December and I am going to make it to the end of this year and I will be focused on this fitness. My goal was to lose 30 more pounds from July to December 31st. By New Year's eve, I am confident in saying I will have lost that amount of weight over the course of these 6 months. Now whether or not I have kept it all off, we have to see New Year's Eve. Entering tech week of my third show this Fall, I'll admit it: I'm tired. And sometimes I just want to eat a pizza and drink a bottle of wine. I am also tired of going back and forth with myself and my preoccupation of what food item would be perfect at any giving moment. So I officially surrender.
I surrender to all of my tingling tastebuds,my memory's recall and emotional association with certain foods and food groups, especially during this holiday season. I surrender to my love of Food. But I am creative and if I'm going to eat and eat to satiate me, its time to pull out the Gift of Alternatives.
Driving home tonight, I compiled a list in my head: The list of foods I will be consuming for the month of December 2009 (for the most part)
The list that made me excited about planning my food and controlling my plan by making this list! Here it goes:
Almonds Almonds Almonds
Raw almonds Wasabi Tamari Almonds!!! Yummm!!! Those are special. Like a treat!!! Enjoy it.
Meatless chicken nuggets and meatless chicken patties. Tonight I ate meatless chicken patties with spinach leaves on top, A TBSP of Tomato sauce and eggplant sauce on top, and a sprinkle of shredded mozzo. It comforted me thoroughly for just under 200 calories. I can do that 1-3 times a week all month before getting sick of it. Next!
I know I don't eat a lot of cereal, but its December and I want to eat some cereal dammit. So I have a budget of one bowl of cereal with vanilla soymilk in the morning, should I choose to cash in on it, every morning this month (which will probably end up being 15-20 mornings this month) Why? Because it also feels like a treat to me. And I have learned to recognize that shaky knee of pleasure-depravity that urges me to heed its warning's tremble just before all hell breaks loose. And we are close, hence the list. Also!
Cereal is sweet. Soy milk is.. milky. I feel like I am participating in this season and all the yummies therein when I eat cereal. And its good for me for just under 200 calories.
Cabbage. I can eat cabbage every single day. It is amazing. And I steam mine with a chopped tomato, chopped onion, apple cider vinegar, olive oil, and a taste of whipped butter. sea salt black pepper, cayenne. The perfect soup to eat when you want quantity first and quality first. Its warm and reminds me of all the trimmings on a soul food get-down plate. I find if you remember the star(s) you will remember the whole production. I do the same thing with Collard greens or mustard greens. Even a baked Yam. These comforting soul foods can give and give and give individually each starring in a one man's show.
If I throw in Salads which are a bit miscellaneous this month ( its hard for me to eat so much salad in cold weather) and my odwalla superfood bars which I pull out of my purse around 4pm, and my last treat "100 calorie" snack bars ( I do not eat more than 2 of these anyday. And if I want 2 that day, I decide that morning and I spread them out) I already have a list of yummy things I can crave all day and night and plan for and achieve still averaging 900-1000 calories a day. This is my plan for December. Oh! I almost forgot: ALL Things Mushrooms, Spinach and tomatoes. Stir-Fry?! You better believe it. Broccoli Crowns, raw or steamed, either with a splash of lemon juice, sea salt and olive oil? abso. And apples. for those mornings I dont want cereal. For those mornings I want a little more Fiber and a break to make my cereal feel like a treat again. And I can mix and match these unitary food items to keep my belly full every 2-3 sunlit hours, and I STILL have a safety net of 200-300 calories a day that I can fall into if I happen too, and still lose weight. CAUTION: We plan WITH our safety net. We do not plan FOR our safety net. (this safety net equals 2-3 "bingeable" snack bars. also equals 3-4 of the ULTIMATE unitary treat: STRING CHEESE) I'm just sayin. You better be ready.
When your thoughts of food consume you, get creative! Get in you head and consume your food thoughts. There is power in Planning. And sooo much food tastes good. Oh! I almost forgot another thing for this December-The Battle of the Holiday Cravings: Cauliflower, steamed, mashed, with curry and turmeric. and a tbsp of coconut milk if I'm feeling naughty.
Feast, Fittins! Nature has a beautiful Garden for us. Get Creative and Stay Focused. I am refocused now that I know whats on the menu. I'm trying to go to sleep so I can wake up and eat my next meal!! And please remember to Say Your Grace!
xoxo
Lisa E.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Work Out or Be Out Worked
Everybody is out here trying to get it. Get it Get it Get Win It Win it Win it. What happens when you are working so hard at something and it seems like nothing is coming your way?
There is a sixteen year old boy who has repeatedly been running away from home. The last time he ran away he was gone for 6 days, completely defeating his mother's spirit at the same time annihilating all trust and hope she struggled to maintain for him. When he showed up at my door, he was cold and hungry, his feet were sore from "walking the streets" for days doing who knows what to "make that money". My mom and I talked with him, while he showered and attempted to rinse some of that life off of him, I made him some vegetarian spaghetti. He was very hungry and informed me that in a few bites he was definitely going to be looking for the meat.
He ate, we talked, and as he sleeps in my bed right now while I am on the couch writing this, I still don't know what he is searching for and if he ever really really thought he would find it. He said he was looking for quick money. But if quick money were on the streets, everyone would be on the streets looking for it, and then of course there would be a shortage of that very thing that is in high demand.
My friend told me at the gym, "Lisa, Work out or be out worked." I guarantee you that while you are not working out those issues or "problem areas" in your life that are standing in between you and your success and happiness, someone else is working at or already has worked out that very thing and is now a little closer to a destiny that could be yours. This confused teen is not working out his issues and he went out on these streets and got out worked. His naivetee has led him down a very common path of fail fail learn fail fail stumble fail fail getting it fail fail understanding. In counseling him, I am reminded that I make the same mistakes of neglect and habit that he is making. And I am experienced at working out.
This week I am working out for him. If you can lead by example, please do. Someone IS watching you, and only you can determine what it is they get to see.
There is a sixteen year old boy who has repeatedly been running away from home. The last time he ran away he was gone for 6 days, completely defeating his mother's spirit at the same time annihilating all trust and hope she struggled to maintain for him. When he showed up at my door, he was cold and hungry, his feet were sore from "walking the streets" for days doing who knows what to "make that money". My mom and I talked with him, while he showered and attempted to rinse some of that life off of him, I made him some vegetarian spaghetti. He was very hungry and informed me that in a few bites he was definitely going to be looking for the meat.
He ate, we talked, and as he sleeps in my bed right now while I am on the couch writing this, I still don't know what he is searching for and if he ever really really thought he would find it. He said he was looking for quick money. But if quick money were on the streets, everyone would be on the streets looking for it, and then of course there would be a shortage of that very thing that is in high demand.
My friend told me at the gym, "Lisa, Work out or be out worked." I guarantee you that while you are not working out those issues or "problem areas" in your life that are standing in between you and your success and happiness, someone else is working at or already has worked out that very thing and is now a little closer to a destiny that could be yours. This confused teen is not working out his issues and he went out on these streets and got out worked. His naivetee has led him down a very common path of fail fail learn fail fail stumble fail fail getting it fail fail understanding. In counseling him, I am reminded that I make the same mistakes of neglect and habit that he is making. And I am experienced at working out.
This week I am working out for him. If you can lead by example, please do. Someone IS watching you, and only you can determine what it is they get to see.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
THE GIVING OF THE GETTING
Whew! I completed 10 days of the Master Cleanse. Not my intended 13, hey, I'm in 2 shows concurrenty and Tech week started to get intense! For those of you who don't know what the MAster Cleanse is, google it. AKA Lemonade Diet, it is a detox like no other. when I went to my neighborhood health food store to get some of my ingredients 2 weeks ago, Sunshine the store owner asked me if I was doing the cleanse for 41 days. Whaaaaaiii??? Um, no Sunshine. Are you smoking rocks? Just kidding. But He urged me to do it as long a s I can. Now that I have broken my fast I must say that I miss it. During this particular Fasting experience, I went in with a certain goal: to make a physical sacrifice so that I might attain a higher level of understanding of myself in general. The first few days were the most difficult because the physical abstinance was evident. But the duration lead my search on many different journeys. I was hungry until I was hungry no more and then I began to get full.
Prayer is a huge part of any fast, I believe. And although this is a detox, it is a fast too. I prayed for endurance, focus, release. I practiced endurance, focus, release and patience and those things I laid down at the starting line were waiting for me at the finish line.
Last night was opening night at the opera, "The Elixir of Love", Donizetti's adorable Italian opera about love, hope, magic, and faith. In the opera, a country boy becomes the riches man in town, wins the girl of his dream and the respect of his neighbors. He gave his Faith to a Doctor and put his belief in a magic elixir. WHether the Elixir worked or not, we will never know. But what was real and what you could see was the Faith. Faith without Works is dead so we must activate our belief in some way. It is not all metaphysical. It can not all be a dream or fantasy either. Give a little bit of your self to reach a little bit of your self.
I miss my quiet, hungry spirit during my fast. My conscience that sent me home to my bed after a long day rather than on the dark streets to sniff out my desires. I miss the loud converstaions with my mind as I fed on files taking up space in my brain, I sucked out all of the nutritional value from these beliefs and digested what I needed to sustain me, and the rest I flushed out with salt water.
These Mantras came to me and helped with my endurance and my understanding of the Gifts and the Gift of Giving. Maybe they can help you too.
To Give is to To Get.
You want to Get It, You Must Give It.
Forgive It and Forget It.
I do this for Me, I don't do this for You.
I do this for You, I don't do this for Me.
Prayer is a huge part of any fast, I believe. And although this is a detox, it is a fast too. I prayed for endurance, focus, release. I practiced endurance, focus, release and patience and those things I laid down at the starting line were waiting for me at the finish line.
Last night was opening night at the opera, "The Elixir of Love", Donizetti's adorable Italian opera about love, hope, magic, and faith. In the opera, a country boy becomes the riches man in town, wins the girl of his dream and the respect of his neighbors. He gave his Faith to a Doctor and put his belief in a magic elixir. WHether the Elixir worked or not, we will never know. But what was real and what you could see was the Faith. Faith without Works is dead so we must activate our belief in some way. It is not all metaphysical. It can not all be a dream or fantasy either. Give a little bit of your self to reach a little bit of your self.
I miss my quiet, hungry spirit during my fast. My conscience that sent me home to my bed after a long day rather than on the dark streets to sniff out my desires. I miss the loud converstaions with my mind as I fed on files taking up space in my brain, I sucked out all of the nutritional value from these beliefs and digested what I needed to sustain me, and the rest I flushed out with salt water.
These Mantras came to me and helped with my endurance and my understanding of the Gifts and the Gift of Giving. Maybe they can help you too.
To Give is to To Get.
You want to Get It, You Must Give It.
Forgive It and Forget It.
I do this for Me, I don't do this for You.
I do this for You, I don't do this for Me.
Friday, October 9, 2009
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